Reflections

One of the things lockdown has given me is time to reflect. 

Go back to the drawing board, look at that list of hopes and dreams and start to assess and measure my successes  and failures. It's the craziest thing ever how our shortcomings can take center stage and overshadow all our triumphant moments. Often times during the reflection period, it is easy to look at old wounds and start picking them apart until it starts to hurt all over again. I reckon because under normal circumstances life gets so busy, we sweep our ill feelings under the carpet and put our healing on hold in hopes that one day we will eventually get over it.

But here you are face to face with the possibility that life might not even return to "normal" again, whatever that means for you. You now have a little more time to focus on the one you always neglect, which is YOU. Your self awareness switches back on, all the suppressed feelings come to surface. It's time to face the music and you realize you've been dancing out of tune all this time.

Everyone has been experiencing a negative shift, in different ways. The pandemic has taken its toll on all of us, some more than others. One thing that i truly believe is that the narrative doesn't have to stay the same, you can change your story. You can use this opportunity to go back to the drawing board but this time plot on how to reinvent yourself; create a better version of yourself, rewrite the whole book. This time just count your blessings and look at all that progress you've made.

Ps: I wrote this more for me because i needed to let it out and make sense of what I've been feeling.

I really hope i wrote this for you too and that somehow these words find you when you need it the most.